Sometimes pain comes with us differently it’s either may move us forward or backward but the hardest part is to decide which path we wanted to choice.
As I stood still while in a crossroads I choice to move forward even it was too hard to understand I knew then I need to pull my life in the shadow of death.
Making that choice my life turned 360 degrees. When I stare my reflection in the mirror I see new soul in an old body. I was mesmerized. Almost a decade I was too dependent with my behalf, and as I blink my eyes I fall down my knees in the darkest alley where I see no light, it’s was a downfall of my day.
The sorrow of losing someone was unbearable to handle nor to understand; I thought a perfect life but in every fairy tale story sometimes its not a happy ending.
When I take a glance on you 10 feet below the ground my life shattered. The feeling of uneasiness was the only thing I felt, it was strange but my mind was empty and my heart full of anguish. I did not even notice that my shadow run away with me. She run too fast. I was chasing her but I don’t know where she goes. She run, run and run.
Then, I felt my body I was too tired; I cannot chase her not with my condition, I’m too thirst and I felt folding my knees with my hands and locking my head. Suddenly, I heard a step moving forward, as I look-up she stare at me she lend a hand, I get-up and pointing me on a place that she called “The Shadow of Life Labyrinth (Sa Anino Ng Sangandaang Buhay).”
As I took my first step, I didn’t notice it has been more than three years that I left my old life in order for me to survive. Sometimes, I may not know the answer to all my questions playing in my mind; I also don’t understand why I should suffer this. So many questions but the more I ask the more it was too shallow to get an answer.
All of a sudden, I pause for a while and I totally stop asking because I was surprise with the outcome of my fate or it was my destiny. My life was too good to be true, I was at the right place at the right moment that even an inch of my unfortunate event is not an accident, and I learn to embrace my new life.
As I always thought that God forsaken me but he never did he was there always right beside me. I was living in a life full of mystery. I have no doubt; that in every step my life is unending story of compassion and struggle I learn to appreciate my life and to balance the pain and joy.
My life journey from street to summit was already destined for a fulfillment of one’s dream.